Happy New Year! Time for all that 'new year, new you' stuff that everyone apparently hates!
I too am as nihilistic and misanthropic as the worst of us on some days and in my darker moments my sense of humour could cut through steel - however if I get enough sleep and quality husband & kitty time I am basically sunshine in a bottle.
Although, if you want to make a change, why the hell not now? It's as good a time as any and what everyone else thinks doesn't actually matter so if you want to do something new or improve something, go for it! Also in my case someone saying 'ha, you won't make it past week one' is fuel for the fire. You, sir or madam, have awoken the motivation dragon. I might not do it for my health, but I will do it to prove an arbitrary point to a passing aquaintance. For this, friends, is the human condition.
So 2016 is done. And so much the better for that I think. For me personally it was a bit of a transformative year, mostly for the positive. New career, new cats, new social commitments, new outlook! I'm in much better life balance shape than this time last year which I'm pretty proud of.
The world as a whole had a real mixed time. What I would love to happen is that in 40 years time there's a kind of 2016 club with a bunch of the babies born in 2016 now doing amazing things in 2056 - very possibly a lot of future great scientists, artists, philosophers, educators, human rights activists were all born this past year.
I have a bunch of things I generally don't think of as resolutions, just stuff I'm working on. One does tie in with the New Year which is to do with exercise and healthy eating and sleeping - partly because I'm a sucker for the chocolate, cheese and booze sabotage month also known as December. It's too hard to make that kind of change at Christmas so January it is. But I'm trying to get my head on right about it - it's getting time back at the gym and having something to look forward to do like fun classes I like rather than a constant slog. Same for veggies, but I love veggies so there's not much problem there. Sleep too is a big part of this equation. As a long time insomniac I have actually been doing really well on the sleep pattern building for the last few months. January is cold and miserable, but the gym is warm and the veggies are bright!
I am planning to give a vegan February a go as a bit of a cooking experiment so we will see how that goes. I don't know that its right for me long term, but I like the challenge of cooking new things. I have a few vegan pals so it'll be nice to know I can whip up more than one thing if they are round for tea.
Finances - despite having blown plenty on Christmas I still managed to save something this month! For the first time in years. And I've made some steps forward in managing/improving my personal finances which I've been trying to do for ages. Staying the course is my goal this year.
A couple of more personal things I'm working on are - when enough's enough and not sorry, but thank you. What the hell am I talking about? Well, allow me to get all script font on a landscape background inspirational on you...
When enough's enough - for me means participating in as much as I can, but knowing when to say no because I need time to rest. Yes, I have the luxury to pick and choose what I do in my free time and I appreciate it massively because it might not always be that way. I want to be fully there when I attend something. I want to be on time and have the energy and focus to give it my all and enjoy it. So I've picked a couple of big things that I want to be my best at and give myself permission to back off other tasks when I need to. Also if I dread something, can I make it better? If not, why the hell am I still doing it?
Not sorry, but thank you - this is basically instead of groveling with insecure apologies all the time, just saying cheers instead. So instead of apologising to my husband or my friends for being a terrible, annoying awful human being I say 'hey thanks for being my friend, it's really great and I appreciate it'. My hope is that this will:
- a) make my loved ones more aware of how awesome they are.
- b) reduce automatic self doubt. It's important to be self aware of your limits and stuff you can improve, but you also have to try not to just derail yourself with low self esteem.
- c) save sorry for when I really need it. Give it real weight and meaning not just a default setting.
What am I doing about the world in 2017? Well, trying to be more responsible, brave and kind. Keep voting, keep reading, keep protesting, keep calling things out, and give what I can when I can.
So there you go. My saccharine approach to this fresh year... Hope it's a belter for us all! xxx